reasons i may be trans (ftm)
- i kind of want to become a guy
- i fantasised once about my mother telling me how i’ve grown up into such a cute boy
- i sometimes fantasise about injecting t into myself
- i look into the mirror and i almost see a guy (maybe im just delusional 😭)
reasons i may not be trans
- im not dysphoric, im fine being a girl
- i could just be deluding myself???
- i would want to present femininely anyways, forgive me but my ideal self would be a femboy…
- i would really hate facial hair on myself
now that i’ve written all that out, the chance of me being trans doesnt seem to be zero… though it kind of sucks because i wont be able to experiment with my gender presentation trans or not (e.g cant cut my hair or stuff like that due to circumstances) so i guess ill be stuck as a girl anyways haha
sorry for the incoherent rant
As a start, you could ask friends to address you as a boy and see how that makes you feel. Read a written message about you saying “him” instead of “her”. Accepting new pronouns isn’t a requirement though. You don’t need to jump into HRT right away, until you are sure (or want to mess around*). None of this is set in stone. Your feelings towards appearance or HRT or pronouns might develop from there. You’ll find a comfortable spot for you. ❤️
Also, you might want to look around for someone to talk to offline / in a call. Personally found a local counseling surprisingly helpful, especially to get tipps regarding “what are (possibly) the next steps?” and where to find supportive local medical professionals.
Also, no need to be sorry about “ranting”, asking here is a great choice! Many of us are happy to help.