I try to improve, but I get nowhere, like parts of my brain are broken from CPTSD. I don’t think I get bonus points for trying, even if my “excuse” is my brain didn’t develop normally. I’m just so glad I never had kids - I’m at the age they would be eviscerating me during their teenage years, and I don’t think I could handle such a beatdown, an itemized list of all the ways I’m a shitty human. It’d be a tragic misconception, bc I just want to support the younger generations’ continued efforts towards universal human rights. Which would include universal mental health care and community support programs, so hopefully the situations my family went through that pushed us past our tolerances for physical, mental, and spiritual pain don’t happen to others.
Anyways, thanks for listening to my ramble, I’ve tried “correctly” with a solid 28 years of therapy and medication, I’m not sure what else to do except to keep trying. Life is definitely too nuanced for memes 😂
Thank you! I figure that’s all I can do till maybe someday that try/don’t try “there is no try, only do” thing hits 😂💜