zip up doesn’t destroy my hair, i prepared for boymoding prettily.

hiking boots, tent, knife, first aid kit

(or flare instead of first aid; depends on how remote i am. if there should be shipping routes somewhat nearby, it may be a flare.)

i wish you all the best on your journey. ＼(^o^)／

you are very well on time with your exploration. i guess what i wanted to tell you earlier, but couldn’t express well, is that you got time. just don’t feel pressured by whatever magical age or developmental milestone … i still find it hard to find the words in english. but when you are now already asking the hard questions, you are well on track for whatever you’ll decide. … i do have regrets, when i am down. as someone who started being honest to themselves in mid-30s, i could (maybe) had a cooler time in uni. but still. i am having a great time now. it could’ve been awsome-er for longer, ofc, but i did this, when i was ready: i have awsome friends a stable income and accepting colleagues.

you will do this. just don’t let people stress you. that’s really unneccessary. :)

you are totally allowed to move as slow or fast as you want. you may also swing between masc and fem. i am presenting very much binary fem rn. i also try to keep it open for me that i might be more of a femby. idk yet. i started hormones 6 month ago, after 10 years or so of being an angry enby without claiming the label. hormones quickly turned out to be what i wanted, but everything else i don’t know.

you really don’t have to have all the answers right now. if you like to explore presenting masc irl, do so. maybe find a safe opportunity for that first; theater is a great way to play around. or you could do what i basically did: just ever so slightly shift your presentarion over years so that no one has a point at which they ask annoying questions. ;) unfortunately i feel like i lost a lot of time. that is my twenties as a girl. repression is bs. but it is what it is … i am happy now. i promise. :)

i’m hyped for what’s next.