I put the keys on top of my rental car at a family meet up. I put them there for a second to get my kid out of the car. Family spent the next 30 minutes looking for them with me. I was the only one tall enough to be able to actually see them sitting on top of the large SUV we rented. I wanted to kill myself when I found them up there.
Yeah. It’s definitely the time dilation that occurs when you start to get ready and how the act of actually doing something starts to allow you to get distracted during that time.
“Wow, I’m getting ready already. I can definitely take some extra time to trim my fingernails. They’re looking long.”
And then it’s fucking over once you let yourself agree to that.
I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD but I’ve kind of been jealous of these carefree memes. Like, I wish I could be late for things or forget to show up to something. At least in the way it’s portrayed in a “quirky carefree” way.
I definitely have the executive dysfunction and procrastination part. But, if there is some “event” happening at a specific time I literally can’t do anything else for the rest of the day (“trip” in the memes case) but prepare or wait for it.
It’s been a thing since I was a kid. I remember sitting in my baseball uniform all day before a little league game waiting.
Wondering if it’s just my anxiety being stronger than my ADHD for specific social events. Or events that would be embarrassing to miss (missing a bus stop).
It’s like my brain knows I’m really bad at being ready for something, can easily forget, so it goes into hyper-focus on it and doesn’t let me do anything all day until the event time comes.
I really wish I could just chill out on a bus and occasionally miss my stop. It would be much more enjoyable than spending the whole time counting the stops and checking the gps for a second opinion. Anyone else with ADHD get this? I feel like sometimes the “memes” here are more representative of how people “see” ADHD people and less about how it actually is to live with.
Like, I’ll still fuck up. I’ll still miss my stop or be late, but I didn’t spend all day chasing squirrels. I spent all day thinking about it, unable to do anything else, then met a moment of brief false confidence that kept me distracted long enough to misremember that the appointment was at 11 NOT 1130. Wtf, I looked at it 100 times. I set an alarm. How did I fuck this up again? I gotta somehow explain again why I missed something while spending the whole time leading up to it being completely disabled because I was hyper-focused on not missing it. Normal people don’t understand that; so gotta come up with some normie relatable excuse for them that will sound completely fake coming from me.
Thanks. Removed comment was just them calling me a psycho. Nothing of value after their Liberal ideas of the world get challenged.
Open a window mate. You keep smelling your own farts all day. It’s not good for you.
Another label to use ignore addressing the arguments I’m making. Enjoy making your “tankie” memes.
“Tankie” does not have a meaningful definition. At least not anymore. It’s a vague idea of what the reader defines as “authoritarian”.
Caging or killing people for having another opinion isn’t social justice. Re-education camps and gulags are not solidarity
This type of thing is an example of what I’m talking about. You’re not “a leftist” if you’re going to live in a world in which we never “win”. To remain in a fascist controlled world but enjoy the moral arguments of superiority without having to actually make decisions in a post revolutionary society. We have Nazis in the US that want all trans people killed. What is your solution after the revolution, after “leftist” take power to do with these Nazis? To let them remain “free”. To let them spread their lies and propaganda? If not “caging” if not “reeducation” if not “killing”. What is your solution for this? It’s fun to critize past societies when you only have judgement and not solutions.
Your criticism is not on the conditions, effectiveness, or any other material outcome of gulags or reeducation. It is on the “idea” of protecting “rights”. It makes no material argument. It is defending an idea in your head that is destructive to the rights of others.
“Leftism” is not based on moral principles alone. That is liberalism. That is idealism. Leftist principles are based on dialectics and materialism. It is the difference between “defending human rights” by some idea of liberal principles and achievement of actual material freedoms of health, shelter, labor, etc.
For example, that “freedom of speech” is a fundamental idea that if followed, to absolute material outcome of that idea, then the moral outcomes will be fulfilled for all. This is what liberals believe. The “I may not agree with you but I’ll fight to the death your right to say it”.
When after a revolution the liberal thought is “very concerned with suppression of free speech”. It is then that many people that call themselves “leftist” hold onto this liberal idealism and state that the post revolutionary society is “authoritarian”.
I critize post revolutionary societies because I want current revolutionary societies to learn from their failures and improve upon them. Not to have some useless Idealist label “true leftist” or “tankie”.
As Parenti said
And those who demand instant perfection the day after the revolution, they get up and say “Are there civil liberties for the fascists? Are they gonna be allowed their newspapers and their radio programs, are they gonna be able to keep all their farms? The passion that some of our liberals feel, the day after the revolution, the passion and concern they feel for the fascists, the civil rights and civil liberties of those fascists who are dumping and destroying and murdering people before. Now the revolution has gotta be perfect, it’s gotta be flawless.
I am starting to absolutely despise the term “leftist” because it has basically evolved to mean “my specific leftist values at this exact moment in time”. And anyone that disagrees with me is a “tankie” or a “liberal”.
It’s such a useless term to begin with. But at least in the past it could be term to include anyone that had class consciousness and was anti capitalist. Now, it’s just used to categorize the readers personal identity and protect them from any criticism of groups in the past or present that actually go out and organize in some capacity.
It’s become a term to protect the feelings of online “leftist” that never leave their apartment. People that just want to be on “the left” because it makes them feel superior morally. Instead of actually working for material changes.
I was at a Braves and Cubs game in 1998. I was 8 years old. It was in Atlanta and I was Cubs fan. I think it was actually a playoff game. So, even though it was Atlanta there were a ton of cubs fans there. My family was from Chicago originally but had moved to Atlanta before I was born.
There was some basketball guy with a hoop strapped to his back. Braves themed etc. Idk why basketball at a baseball game but whatever.
There were some kids in line to try to get it in the basket. The dude had some mechanism on his back that moved the basket up and down and he was basically deciding if the kids made the shot or not. Idk if it was the “rigged” game that bothered me or my Chicago parents that indoctrinated me into being a toxic baseball fan. But, there were some adult cubs fans nearby. So I had an audience.
It was my turn. The guy with the basket on his back made some comment about my Cubs shirt. I don’t remember what it was. But it pissed my 8 year brain off enough. I threw the ball right in the dudes face. Paused for a moment to see his confused face recover from looking up for my shot to realize what happened. I said “Go Cubs go” in the most nonchalant way my an 8 year old kid could and walked away.
The drunk cubs fans nearby were busting out laughing. One even gave me a high five.
Today, I still fucking hate that guy with the rigged game that mocked my shirt while also feeling like I was a total dickhead at the same time.
When the anarchist group finds out theyre all just CIA, FBI, and Mossad.
I don’t know why. But this reminded me of the time I wore an orange shirt to home depot by mistake; spent 10 minutes helping a girl I thought was hitting on me. Realized about 5 minutes in she thought I worked there.
Much like time dilation in Einsteins theory of relativity. Time is relative and can be measured differently based on ones current velocity through spacetime. So, technically we are all “time travelers”. We’re just experiencing time in our own unique way. For ADHD, it’s not just velocity through spacetime, but also how our brains perceive that time. That is my theory of ADHD based time dilation anyway.